{Underneath the Stars.

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

'gamelan

8:04 PM

konnichiwa!!~

my gamelan session just ended and guess what???

it was SUPER AWESOME!!!~

the music is soooooo mystical!!!!~ it just gives you the chill!!!~ SCARY!!!~ but SUBARASHII!!!~

the instructor was a little soft spoken but he was everything but not boring. i really enjoyed the session. i played the Saron demung. its a simple instrument to play and its loud!!~ i managed to make new fren. her name is izzy. shes nice, she can entertain my craziness for music. now, im looking forward to every training. i heard there is alot of performances and im soo psyched if im in it!!~

just thinking about gamelan makes me forget about my worries. it just makes you happy. okay, maybe i have a thing with music. thats why im psyched about it.

anyway, the fixtures out!! my artistic duo at 1145 arena B, NUS and im fighting at 1615 arena B NUS. Both of it happening on SUNDAY!!!~ Saturday is the guys matches. GAMBATTE RP!!!~

Labels: hope i can make it to the finals...

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

' happy birthday hazmi

12:41 PM

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY HAZMI!!!~

Best of luck for your exams!!~

=)

Monday, May 28, 2007

'madness

1:18 PM

so here i am sitting at a corner reflecting on what has gotten into me. I don’t usually skip class for fun but today, I just don’t have the study mood. A lot of things been on my mind which I need to sort it out before I go berserk.

Today lesson was about equilibrium. i just dont know why i wasnt in the mood. IVP is really bothering me. during the 1st meeting i wasnt really thinking on skipping today's lesson. only that after 2nd meeting, i was sooo lost that someone can just smacked my head and i wouldnt even realise. its really that bad. usually im soo up for challengers just that why not today. is it because im too exhausted that i pretend not knowing. my dad been tellin me that i've overwork myself and i need a time out. i guess the time out is NOW!!~ is it too late??? *sigh*

IVP is SUPER near and its this SATURDAY. I’m competing this SP girl which I don’t know who. Sunday would be my duo artistic and we’re the 4^th team to perform. Been training hard for this and i hope i can really bring back some medal.

School hasn’t been fun especially if you’re a science student. At times, it gets soooo boring/stressful that you’ll go, “What have I got myself into???~”. Now, I’m waiting for my PP advisor to reply my email before I can submit my PP proposal which is due this Wednesday. ARGHH!!~ Apart from that, Im in MCG-Culture Workshop Committee. I still have to come up with a program during this hectic IVP week. ARGHH!!!~ To make things worst, I have UT this FRIDAY!!!~ and its Anatomy and Physiology. I still have not revise my works ever since UT 1 ended. Now, I have to really find that time, which I don’t know how, to revise my studies.

I hope i dont go crazy soon.

MADNESS!!!~

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

'disappointment

2:03 PM

disappointed in myself for not knowing whats happening back at home.

i pray everything will be alright soon.

i just worry what would happen in the long run.

Thursday, May 10, 2007

'11 qn

3:14 PM

Konnichiwa!!~

This was supposed to be done a long time ago as requested by my dearest ‘arifah ‘atiqah!!!~ LOL!!~ but I was overdue. To not disappoint her, I guess, I shall do as requested.

1. What is the first feeling that you can describe yourself?

Hmm. First feeling that I can describe myself. Should be Happy!!!~ Sha La La!!!~ Im a happy person!!~ I like to smile a lot, I really do. It makes me happy as well as others. You know, your smile can make people go “You make my day!!~”

2) Give colour(s) to represent your life and why?

Colour… Dark pink??? Because its my current favorite colour??? LOL!! Okay, maybe it does reflect me. Dark pink would have shades of pink and black. Black would be my discontentedness in life. Im certain everyone has experience it before. As for pink, it would be my amicable personality, I guess.

3) What is your personality like?

This is a very good question. I don’t usually define myself that much. Maybe I can say that I care for others a lot. I put people’s feeling first instead of mine as I don’t want to cause any inconvenience to anyone.

4) Who is/are the people you confide to?

Mainly, Helmi and Akmal. I tell them basically anything. From random feelings to heart-felt-truth. They never fail to cheer me up. Always there when needed. Sadly, we hardly meet as we are busy with our studies and school. But still in touch with each other. =))

5) How much do you share and communicate with your family member and with whom and what are the issues?

How much do I share and communicate with my family member?? Hmmm… Not so much, not so little too. With whom and what issues? If my parents, usually about going out to buy household product, “jemputan”, my grandparents. With my older brothers, its usually about food, nothing else. We hardly talk. With my little brother, we are starting to be close. He told me about his life. Other than that, we’ll talk about shoes and shirts. At times, we go shopping together. He is the only one I talk to most.

6) List five problems you face as the teenager.

Studies – I would really like to get a diploma with distinction.

Freedom – I have to be home by 7pm. Well, I didn’t complain much instead im starting to appreciate it.

Time management - im very busy with school activity that i hardly have time for myself. After IVP, taking license and thought of working. Tutoring my cousin??? ARGHH!!!~

Financial – I would like to try to earn my pocket money myself. My dad paid for my school fee which is a lot and bus fares and allowance. I thought of getting allowance myself.

Relationship – its self explanatory

7) Is boy and girl relationship important and why?

Important? Maybe not now. But if im in one, the relationship would be important to me. I will definitely appreciate every moment with my significant other and hoping its my last. In other words, im not looking for a boyfriend im looking for a husband.

8) If you’re attached, how open, honest, truthful, out-spoken or sensitive are you to your partner?

If im attached, I’ll be dead honest and truthful to my significant other. I believe when you are honest and truthful, that is where trust is built. Trust is very important. I will never want to hurt him. I’ll always try to think if what I do might hurt him. But sadly, at times, I just cant control myself and gave attitude or say things I didn’t mean which lead to undesirable outcome – argument. If not I’ll always be sensitive to his feelings.

9) What do you think other people’s first impression on you?

Hahah!!~ Well, if im not wrong people will say that im a cheerful person, no? Which to me was a good thing as it is part of me. A common first impression of me. Occasionally, some thought im Chinese, Malaysian Chinese or Indonesian??? LOL!!~ cant help it. im not a pure malay. This I can guarantee.

10) If you can make a change, what do you want to change in your life and why?

What a good question. Hahah. Okay, I learnt a lot about life from relationship. That is the reason why I treasure being in relationship. I once found someone I, unquestionably, feel that really completes me. I just felt that I, truly, can be myself. If I can change something it would be from this relationship. I would sacrifice a little of my busy school life just to be with him and loving him as if tomorrow never comes. Nevertheless, I treasure every moment with him. =))

11) Complete this sentence –

Apathy in life is…

wasting away every precious minute you have on earth. you never know when you'll leave. so treasure you loved ones, thinking theres no tomorrow. LOL!! philosophical eh???

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

'tired + sleepy = exhaustion!!!~

12:35 PM

konnichiwa!!~

i was around town 3am in the morning. somewhere near Fullerton Hotel. babyface!!~ LOL!!~ narh, i dont intend to club. there are other ways to enjoy yourself, being around friends!!!~ i just went pass it because we were having NIGHT CYCLING!!!~

4th of May 2207
for the first time, i went NIGHT CYCLING!!!~ was super fun having naz, sufian, su, raihan, asmin, bala, aidil, kholiq and umar around. just us 10 is enough. LOL!!~ was utterly enjoyment. we didnt know that the night cycling committee was mostly republicans. GO RP!!~

our starting point was at Tampines East CC. straight after our MCG meeting, we did our RJ and head to Fir's house to put our stuff. asmin and i didnt visit Fir's house as we straight met them at the CC. as usual, silat people = late. it wasnt solely my conclusion of silat people but there are others that actually agree with me. so, asmin and i was at the CC before 9.30pm, which was supposed to be the meeting time. we waited for the others to arrive and they arrive at 10pm. LOL!!~ we werent "late" as there was "team bonding activity" going on. there were other groups that participated. the turn out was great. around 50 cyclist!!~ mainly we conqured one lane while cycling on the road. we cycle around tampines for around 30mins i guess and head off to East Coast then to Lau Par Sat, is that the correct spelling? After that head back to tampines at 7 plus in the morning. the checkpoint may be a few but the journey there was challenging. went up benjamin shear's bridge was tough!!!~ but going down was exhilirating!!!~ the feeling is like being on a rollercoaster ride!!~ the only thing that i cant stand was the stoppingS!!!!~ seriously ALOT of stopping!!!~ the stopping made me sleepy. every stop, i took a little nap because i seriously cant stand it!!! nevertheless, i was alert while cycling. i have no idea where i had the energy to be alert after a nap. maybe its just my prayers that i'll be safe throughout the journey.

after making our way back to the CC. we head off to Fir's house. plan was to take our bag eat breakfast at some coffeeshop and head home but some end up dozing off while others play game. i was half awake. manage to sleep for maximum 15mins and was awake. then slept back and was awaken again and it continues for a couple of times. I DIDNT GET TO SLEEP PEACEFULLY!!!! LOL!!~ oh had breakfast at Fir's house. his mum was sooo kind to buy stuff for us. THANX CIK!!!~ after breakfast some continue sleeping others play game as usual until 12plus and we head home. once at home, i showered and went straight to bed. I WAS SOOOO SLEEPY!!!~ what a relieve!!~

so yeah, IVP is coming and im getting injuries frquently. sigh. busted my ankle again. i guess its just my preparation for IVP. wish me luck.

you never know how meaningful you are to me. sometimes it doesnt need an explaination but understood.

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

'i hate myself for being a bad friend

8:40 PM

ARGHH!!!!~

i hate myself for being such a bad friend. i seriously like to apologise my former class W26K. my busy-ness has kept me away from you. im sorry.

some peeps i seriously miss most.
cheryl
joey
atiqah
janice

firstly, i would like to wish HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY CHERYL!!!~ im sorry. im soooo overdue. please let me make it up to you. im sorry for forgetting you birthday!!!!~ GOD!!~ what a friend. *sigh*

for joey, atiqah and janice - i seriously miss you guys.

i miss enterprise lesson with you, joey. we were supposed to reseach but end up watching Goong. LOL!!~

i miss culture lesson with you, atiqah. it was sooooo much fun having you as a team mate. even though our team lacks manpower, we still deliver a great presentation, too me that is.

i miss science lesson with you, janice. *you'll always be the blur one* LOL!! having you around would be soo much fun as we end up getting our facts right by your blurness when we keep explaining to you.

im sorry girls. lets hang out soon.

as for my former class W34G. I SERIOUSLY HOPE WE HAVE SOME GATHERING. I MISS YOU, BADLY. =....(

taggy replies
To MUMU: i will not call you hero until you tell me something that is worth the call
To cheryl: i will link you up and please forgive me for the late birthday wish
To scarzy: i miss you too!!!~ lets hang out soon
To -='aRiFaH=-: i will do it when im free but i will definitely do it. =)
To joey: i miss w26k too, especially you. =)
To atiqah: yea, my JB trip was fun. about that, forget it k?