{Underneath the Stars.

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

' weirdly enough

12:39 AM

6 weird things about me???

1. i love gummies as if my life revolves around it
2. im a perfectionist when it comes to studying
3. i have lost my passion for silat but i still go for my trainings
4. i used to listen to old malay songs (not all jiwang), but i still prefer listening to indonesian songs
5. i love penguins alot!!!~ *way before the movie Happy Feet was shown*
6. im an ardent fan of yamapi!!!!~

Lucky few to do this: Maimanah, Azhar, Atiqah, Susu, 'Arifah, Sady!!!~

Randomness:
Guess who came up to me while i was having dinner at TM MacDonald recently?!!~

HELMI and AKMAL!!!!~

its been awhile since i met them. meeting them just COMPLETES my day!!!!~ was sooo excited but sad at the same time, how could you went out without me. nevertheless, catching up with them was such a great moment for me. i cant believe that i actually teared after they left. GOSH, I MISS THEM SOOO MUCH!!!~ *hugs* lets hang out soon guys!!!!~ =...)

Sunday, March 25, 2007

'JP

12:55 AM

konnichiwa!!!!

its been a long time since i greet, i guess. LOL!!!~

let see if i can remember all the interesting happenings...

oh saturday's training was a little funny. talk about the referee all over the world and suddenly heard a VERY WEIRD name and being the normal us, belos, we make up our own name and mine is TIGA binte MOUNTAIN DEW!!!! LOL!!! Mai is EMPAT binte MILO!!! Raudah is SATU binte TEH PENG!!! and finally SU, the most important one *&^$%*&^ dont wanna mention, only she knows. LOL!!!!~

lets move on. went out with Su, Raihan, Umar, Azhar and Zul to jurong point. its been awhile since i dont know when i've been there, in the place have i been there before? i doubt so. LOL!!!~ anyway, we walked around jurong point, and after much walking we went to Liberty Market, if im not wrong, and bought a tub of ice cream that me and Mai bought the other day. we also bought famous amos cookies. we went out of the shopping mall and ate outside the MRT station where all the foreign workers "chill out". OH and Azhar was crapping with me. Hes so ridiculous la!!!~ Overall, the conversation was hilarious and fun!!! Thanx for the crappy-ness moment Azhar!!!~

some pictures to enjoy!~

*these are the guys and the foreign workers. they fit in perfectly!!! LOL!!!~

*up close...

Okay, done with the good times.

Randomness~
IVP is nearing and i have yet to get to my stable weight. sigh. 9 AWESOME week and its TIME!!! how scary and unprepared can you get? GOSH!!! *anxiety attack* Our team aiming for 5 gold. Last year they manage to bring in 4, kudos to them!!! Im participating in Ganda(Choreograph fighting scene in artistic category) and Olahraga(Sparring) Class B. GOD!!!! IM SOOO NERVOUS!!!

Shall not think about it toooooo much. Till then, jah ne!!!~

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

'moving on

2:00 AM

recently, been having trainings and have been going gym for quite sometime. it was awesome!!! it was my first time doing real work-out in the gym with a real gym instructor guidance. what else can i ask for!!!thanx didi, really appreciate it!!!!~ now i have to lose another 2kg more. after ivp, im wanna lose another 8kg if possible, insyaallah.

anyway, went out to town with ashik and umar after training. ashik wanted to take a break from his dull working life. we went to heeren, paragon, cineleisure and far east. check out alot of stuffs. there was only that one part that i was a lil embarassed. we went to look at briefs. felt a lil paisey. but they didnt mind that much and i wasnt that paisey so much because i have brothers at home so, im used to it. so yea. haHA!~

FINALLY!!!!~ i manage to visit MISE shop at cineleisure!!!!~ WOOOHOOO!!!!~ there are new photos of YAMAPI!!!! saw gazette photo too. I LOVE RUKI style in one of his photo, sleek, stylish and utterly GORGEOUS!!!! SOOOO GONNA BUY SOON!!!!~

*this was one of the pic that i saw at mise

after much walking, we felt a lil hungry, well ashik was hungry and we head off to get a lil bite. since we were at cineleisure, i introduced them to the ice cream BLIZZARD!!!!~ they have not tried it but heard about it and so we bought it. LOL!!~ it was AWESOME!!!!!~ they liked it!!! all the ice cream i ate ara all nice, trust me!!!!~

*bought cookies and cream blizzard

upon further walkin, we head off to McCafe and had frappe. talked alot about anything under the sky, especially about mat-rep!!!!~ LOL!!!~ after drinking up, we head home. was tiring yet fun!! thanx for the company guys!!!! really appreciate it!!! =))

im done here!!! jah ne!!!~

Monday, March 19, 2007

'its officially over

10:15 PM

i guess its official now... gave time to think over about the chaotic happenings in our lives and it boils down to this...

never could imagine life without you when u stepped into my world.

but you never know how long it will last. is there such thing as forever?

losing you made me realise that feelings are unpredictable.

i'll try to be off own my own, venturing into the world of uncertainties searching for the meaning of life.

nevertheless, i treasure everything that we share ... in the past ...

i guess time doesnt allow us ... only god knows how much i love you...

=...)

Friday, March 16, 2007

'unfinished

7:00 PM

manage to get the full song of Unfinished by X-Japan

the song is completely in english

a very mournful song

from the rhythm to the lyric ... my kind of song...

*longing to play piano

enjoy...

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

'regrets and misses

4:55 PM

how i wish this is all a bad dream. i wish i could wake up from this dream and do all the things i wish i did.

some of the things that i wish i did.

whenever i spent time with you, i wish i could hug you everytime before i leave.
but i didnt, i thought i had my whole lifetime to do this. trying to keep it for special occasions but it was my mistake.

at times, when i look into your eyes i wish i could tell you how much i love you.
but i said nothing.

when you wink at me the time when i told you it has no effect on me, and you stop. i wish you would do that often
but i made you stop. i was too shy to admit that i was blushing inside. how i wish you could do that often.

once, i could have just skip my training and went out with you as we hadnt spend time for a long time.
but instead, i went for my training.

the most important thing that i wish i did is to love you as if tomorrow never comes.

some of the things i miss

the feeling of being embraced

the security

the feeling of being coax

eating pudding together

the most important thing that i miss the most is the feeling of being love

when you love someone, never hesitate to tell your loved ones about some of the things that you hide from them. appreciate everything you loved ones did for you even if its just opening the door for you.

most important thing, love them as if tomorrow never come. you'll never know what might happen. life is full of uncertainties.

Monday, March 12, 2007

'unconditional love

11:03 AM

"acknowledge that it happened but just be yourself"

its unfortunate that this has to happen. i can only acknowledge it but i cant do anything. all that i can do is just be myself, the girlfriend you know and wish you...

Happy 9th Monthsary dear... May you be in best health...
* i will always love you, now and forever...

close your eyes and let your heart answer you questions.
if this is what you chose...
i'll always be here, waiting for you no matter how long it takes me.

*take my heart keep it somewhere deep in your heart and pursuit your dreams. dont worry about me because no matter what im always in your heart.
=...)

Sunday, March 11, 2007

'acknowledge that it happened but just be yourself

3:21 PM

im glad my grandfather is okay now. he can walk properly and joke around like he used and not forgotting his all soo stubborn personality. im just a little disappointed that he started smoking again. he hasnt been smoking for 5 days while in the hospital. but after being discharged, he started smoking again. my grandmother, my father and me were really stopping him saying that we'll support you all the way but he, being his stubborn self light up the lighter and smoke. u'll never imagine how dishearthening it is. nevertheless, im just glad hes fine.

a special thank to syafiq, helmi, akmal, nina, umar for being there for me. really appreciate it alot.

Sunday, March 04, 2007

'6hr swimming

1:12 AM

Rudolf and 'mary... what's their similarity??
- want more details??? continue reading...

konnichiwa!!!~

yesterday was a blast!!! spent 6hr swimming in school swimming complex. WAS AWESOME!!!! now i look like rudolf. my nose is ridiculously red, even though it cant be seen clearly and there is a distinct seperation of my fair skin and the sunburnt ones. this is what happedned when you dont use sunblock. not to worry, i guess its going to fade off in times to come and i'll have my natural skin colour again, i hope.

the boys having fun...

*picture brought to you by umar

*picture brought to you by umar

i wonder what were they thinking...

*picture brought to you by umar

here is asmin after the 6hr swimming...

asmin in action...

*picture brought to you by umar

these ladies wouldnt want to miss out the fun.. sooo unfair!!!~ they dont get sunburnt...

*picture brought to you by umar

here is my "wonderful arm".. you can clearly see the distinct change in my skin tone...

zoom in...

after a long swimming lesson, we head off to KFC and eat!!!~ havent been eating for the whole day... wanted to eat at banquet but it was soooo packed. head off to the other foodcourt but had little variety of halal food. end up eating at KFC.

'mary and nina... our sunburnt skin... woooohoooo!!!! nina, u still look sweet, dont worry.. =)

anyway, today at 10am i'll be going to my grandpa house, helping him to prepare for the big surgery. praying hard that i'll go smoothly. nevertheless, lets keep up the positive attitude!!!

out of curiousity, i was wondering is it me or people just took advantage of my kindness. let me just give you a scenario. as my malay language is failing me, i asked one of my dearest friend what is the meaning of pohon cemara and he convincingly said something like strawberry tree and foolish me, i believed it. then again, i think, strawberry in malay is strawberi and why is it cemara??? and he laugh!!!!~~ how sad can i be? this is why, sometimes being toooo nice isnt that good!!~ LESSON LEARNT!!!!~~ LOL!!!~

anyway, here are some random photos...

introducing to you, the one that almost melt me with his words, sorry dear, by saying "Saya tak cakap macam gitu, kan????~, with his polite soft voice from the movie CINTA him acting as Taufiq, Mohd Pierre Andre!!!!!~

*not his best photo

and Yours, truly....
i just love the effect... didnt do it, it was by accident... COOLNESS!!!!

enough said... Take care!!!~

Jah ne!!!~

Friday, March 02, 2007

'childhood memories

11:09 PM

konnichiwa!!!

firstly, i know i have not break the news yet but i think tomorrow is a good day, unless they are reading my entry now, anyway i would like to apologise to my selatra peeps for not being able to attend our biggest yet happening bbq this monday. i wish to be there but i have somewhere much important place to be at - right by my grandfather's side.

this monday, my grandfather is going through a major operation. his backbone, if im not wrong, somehow penetrating his nerve causing him cruciating pain . i wouldnt want to be anywhere but right by his side. honestly, i have to say that he is afraid to go through this because doctors said that it was a 50-50 thing. after the operation he either feel better or, touch wood this wouldnt happen, have to be wheelchaired. i pray hard he gets well.

i couldnt imagine life without him. he maybe the most stubborn person i've met but i love him with all my heart, who doesnt love their grandparents right? haha. as im writing this entry, im having flashbacks on all my childhood memories. both my parents were busy working and i was living with my grandparents. i was schooling at bedok back then and since my grandpa always go meet his friends at bedok he offered to pick me up after school and my mum would send me to school before going to work. i grew being around him and that is why i love him more than anything else.

to wrapped up the day,

out of random, im longing for famous amos cookies. nyahahah!!!

atiqah is mean. shes epitome of innocence in disguise.

susu, you are not my grandpa but i still love you. LOL!!!~

and UMAR, when will you tell me what is dicela??